Sunday, May 8, 2011
Soul Surfer
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Thoughts on LDS Conference
It was conference weekend, the weekend where members of the LDS faith get to listen to our leaders, the 12 apostles and the prophet and his counselors give us direction and inspiration. I love conference. It's changed a bit as I've become a mom. It's MUCH more chaotic and that's taken me some time to get used to but I'm more accustomed now. In fact I think I’ve enjoyed this conference more than any other since I’ve had children. I’ve enjoyed WITH my children instead of in spite of them. I’ve loved coloring and Parker’s comments, Ben running around and playing and climbing on me occasionally or coming to color or cuddling. I have loved snuggling with Penny and making her laugh. I am less concerned about quiet and more concerned about the atmosphere and if my kids are enjoying it, and we have. It feels so good. But beyond that I really have been so inspired. I have found a few themes and of course don’t know it it’s just because they are things I’ve been thinking about or if they truly have been themes. But I have heard a lot about families. I loved a talk yesterday morning about women, it really made me feel the Lord’s love and the specialness of my calling as a woman. I wrote this in a notebook I was taking notes on:
“So many talks on children and women and now the song “I know Heavenly Father Loves Me” and it makes me cry.
My greatest role, my most important priority right now is these children and my wonderful husband.
Ben playing with tractor and bringing them to show me, Parker coloring his conference packet and counting words for treats. Penny sucking on her thumb and giving me a beautiful smile. Spencer’s righteous leadership in our home”
I have also heard a lot of talks about testimony, about how to gain a testimony, about doubts, about why people lose their testimony’s and how to avoid that. This is also so pertinent to my life lately as people close to me have doubted their testimony's, which in turn always makes you think more about your own. Elder Bednar spoke this morning about light and he talked about doubts. He said that if we have doubted we are NORMAL but that if we keep true to our covenants and nourish our testimony’s daily we will be okay. I have so found this, that as I read and study and stay true to what I know, the answers come. They come in quiet but profound ways. I hear His voice as I read my scriptures, as I teach my children the gospel, as I reach out to my neighbors. I know He lives. I'm so grateful for the prophet and apostles and the leaders who spoke, conference filled my soul.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
A little late in coming
So I'm a little late on this news but Ben's casts are off!! YAY!! He got them off 2 1/2 weeks ago. He screamed bloody murder while they sawed them off and was kind of afraid of his legs or something but I loved seeing his sweet little scrawny legs (even though they REALLY smelled). He didn't walk for a week and I had to carry him everywhere (he had actually gotten quite mobile with those casts) but week 2 he started to walk occasionally and now week 3 he's doing awesome. He's so proud of himself walking, loves that he can put on shoes and is really starting to keep up with Parker better. I LOVE it. He still has some pain and will cry out at night (I think after being on them all day it hurts him) or if I touch his feet in certain places he winces. But I guess that's normal, the doctors said his Achilles tendon is still healing. We have a check up in a few weeks and will wear the braces at night for 2 more years but we are on our way. Horray! Thank you for all of your thoughts and prayers. Oh, and the day after we got the casts off we headed to Disneyland! :)
I chose to go on the ferris wheel and didn't realize the wind would make it FREEZING. We were all miserable. Parker said after we got off "You chose wrong mom!!"
We went with Bry and Cailin, my mom, Sadie and KC and all of us. We had a great time!
Sunday before everyone went home we went to church and then stopped at a park. I love this pic of my mom, don't her and Penny look so much alike! :)
After Disneyland I got to meet up with my two of my BFF's from High School- Summer and Megan. Summer just happened to be vacationing in San Diego so she drove up to meet me in Anaheim and we drove up to stay with Megan in Paso Robles. We had SUCH a good time. The kids played amazingly together and we just talked and talked and talked.
Penny's getting so big!! Love the rolls!
We weren't supposed to get Ben's casts wet and since they don't fit in shoes it was a little hard to do snow activities but the day before we got them off it snowed and so I took him out and we made a snowman. Notice Ben's bent knee, duck footed stance. Doesn't that look annoying and miserable.
Parker's been snowboarding quite a few times this year and is really starting to love it.
I've been running with three kids in my Chariot lately. It's pretty sqooshy so I don't like to do it (besides the fact that I'm pushing over 80lbs). But my elliptical broke so if i don't get up to exercise before Spencer leaves at 7:20 than my only option is the Chariot. The kids are troopers and we usually get a treat or something fun. They do look cute all snugly in there though. :)
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Ben's Surgery
Ben had his surgery today. They cut his Achilles tendon and put him in casts so that when it grows back it will be lengthened and his feet will be in a better position. It may not sounds fun but I was so grateful to have this surgery today. I feel like I have witnessed a miracle. I have been praying so so hard that this surgery would performed today. We had to reschedule two weeks ago when he had a runny nose and every time we reschedule it means Ben is recasted for an additional 2-3 weeks. We have quarantined him the past two weeks but he still managed to get sick and I have just been praying so hard he would be well enough for the surgery. Even Sunday it wasn’t looking good. But I have just felt at peace about it all. I have prayed so hard and I have felt the Lord would perform a miracle and He did. Ben slept horribly Sunday night- up all night crying like he was sick (Penny slept terribly too, it was rough for all of us). So Monday we stayed home and did nothing and I just prayed and I felt comforted. At 12:15 I put Ben to sleep. He slept for almost 4 hours. He NEVER sleeps like that and I just felt like the Lord was healing him. He was in bed last night by 8pm and slept soundly the whole night and woke when we got him up to go to Shriners at 8am. That really is something for Ben. Parker was hacking up a lung all night. Penny was coughing like crazy but Ben, Ben was okay. I had a prayer in my heart the whole way to Shriners hospital and all through admit that he wouldn’t cough or indicate sickness and that he would pass the check ups of the doctors to get clearance for his surgery. He did cough a couple of times but overall did really well. No fever. No runny nose. No other signs of the sickness he'd been battling for weeks. The anesthesiologist checked his lungs and said he was good to go. I was so relieved. Ben wasn’t very happy to be at the hospital and was very suspicious of everything from blood pressure cuffs to finger heart rate monitors. His favorite was "NO!" But we managed and the drugs they gave him kicked in quickly. Before I knew it he was a noodle. It’s always hard to see your little boy that way yet I just felt peaceful knowing this was a step to an end of the casts. I hated them wheeling him away from me, but I was so thankful at the same time. We are on the ownhill now and I know a miracle has been performed to get us here. We simply could not wear those casts longer. I know that yesterday and last night as Ben slept the Lord was healing Ben. The Lord has watched over us.
Ben has to have his casts on for 4 weeks (I was thinking it’d be 3 so that’s kind of a bummer) but like I said, we're at the end, we have a firm date when they can come off and that feels so good! Ben is home and doing well. And I am grateful.
Excuse the picts. They are from Spencer's phone.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Recent Picts
Greg and his girlfriend Kaylee
Bryant and Penny. Parker's lego Dragons he loves to make, Spencer pre-eye corrective surgery, Temple square lights with Grandma and Grandpa AtkinsonThe boys and snow men and ice caves, Ben precasts
Penny 3 1/2 monthes. Her new room with Aunt Angie's bumper pads and Grandma A's redoing the rocking chair to match.
Christmas at the Cleggs, the Polar Express with Grammy and Grandpa Clegg, Gingerbread houses and Christmas loot